New Year, New Season!
A couple weeks ago God gave me a Word that I knew in my spirit was for the 2020 year. And, that word is Fulfillment. I kept wondering if I heard Him right and even question Him... "Lord, did I hear you right?". Anyone who knows me well, knows I second guess myself constantly. I truly just want to do and say what I know that Lord would have me do and or to say. I don't want to be out of His Will for my life and want to make sure that what I am sharing, teaching, etc. lines up according to His Word, His purpose and His truth for the lives of others as much as myself. The Lord needs me to be more confident in what He says to me and through me. Why? Because that is a calling He has on my life; to share with others.
So I am now going to get personal with you. This past year 2019 has been a difficult time for me. Sure, I have been blessed. I have had some great things happen to me, fun times and places I got to enjoy, friends and family I got to share special time with, etc.. But, what I went through was different. I struggled physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually this past year. I cried all the time, every thing made me cry. I questioned God about things I believe to be truth, I second guessed the calling He had on my life, I didn't want to do anything, I was tired, sad at times and even fell into depression a few times. And, I kept wondering why? What was wrong with me? Why am I struggling so much this year? What the heck is going on with me? In fact, much over the last decade I could see things happening to me and in me. I could sense things in my emotions and in my spirit. As I journaled, God would speak to me and as always, I would write down what He told me. Through the years, (25 to be exact), I have had prophetic words spoken over me, and God too, has personally spoken to me. I have been to conference after conference, healing services, workshops, too many meetings to count. I even wemt back to school (Bible College) to further my education and am excited to say I graduate in the spring! Of course, this is in addition to my private time with the Lord.
But, as the years have gone by, I could feel something happening to me. In 2019, I was beginning to feel discouraged, helpless, hopeless and tired. There would be times I would be like... "Lord, I'm tired!", "Lord, what do you want from me?", "Lord, why?". My questioning the "Doubt", the "Rejection", the "Waiting", the "Pulling away". the "times of Emptiness", the "Fear", oh my the wave of feelings and emotions I went through. I thought at times "Lord, I'm beginning to doubt, I'm beginning to think I heard you wrong, I'm beginning to question the very thing I know to be truth, I'm beginning to think you left me". But in the midst of all that emotion, I still knew He was there, I knew truth, I knew His Love, I knew His mercy, I knew His forgiveness, I knew He never left me, I knew He did speak, I knew my heart, I knew Him! I came to know that I was in the fire, being pruned, being tested, being prepared, being molded... He was getting me ready, truly ready, for what was and is to come. Getting me ready for the call. Getting me ready for His purpose. Getting me ready to truly help those whom He has called me to.
You may be asking, why am I sharing this all with you today? Because I don't believe I am alone. I believe that God's children have been going through alot these past few years. I believe that some have doubted, some have questioned, some have given up. But, I am telling you it's a New Season! A new day is approaching. A new year is coming. A new decade of possibilities. The time has come to lift your head, brush off your knees, and to forge forward. I know that FULFILLMENT is coming!
What have you been standing for, believing for, waiting for? What have you questioned God about? Whatever it is... It is coming! Hold on! Stand firm! Wait and Watch what the Lord is going to do in your life.
When God gave me the Word fulfillment, the first thing I did was look up the definition...here it is!
- the achievement of something desired, promised, or predicted (prophesy).
WOW, WOW, WOW! Read it again!
This morning (December 31st), when I awoke, this "feeling" of great anticipation, great joy and peace flooded my body. I feel like I am glowing. I have this knowing, settled in my spirit, that I heard Him right. I know without a shadow of doubt that promises are coming to pass beginning this year in 2020. I know it!!!
Stand for the healing, stand for that relationship, stand for the promotion, stand for your prosperity. Whatever it is STAND. Do not waiver. Get into His Word and find out what His Word says about it. There is going to be alot of change coming... your pain changing to the promise, your mess turning to a message, your doubt changing to hope, and your sadness turning to joy.
Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Psalm 130:5 says " I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope;"
Isaiah 40:31 says "But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 43:2 says "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."
I pray that 2020 will be filled with every promise that you have stood for to come to pass in your life. I pray that His strength carry you, His love cover you and His peace fill you during this new year and new season getting ready to spring forth.
Happy New Year and many blessings always!
Until Next Time,